Exhaustion. A word synonymous with motherhood.
I know a lot of it has to do with my own doing as I exert a lot of
pressure on myself...to try to be a jack of all trades and a master of
all. To ensure that my house is spick and span at all times. To ensure
that I have the perfect figure and the most radiant skin. But guess
what? reality bites!
Life throws curveballs at you all
the time but motherhood makes it slightly more manageable. Weird that
i'm saying this right? Each time i sink into a murky mix of depression
and expectations, I look at bunnikins. Even though she fights her naps
and feeding times with a vengeance, it's so surreal to see her sleep
each night. That's exactly what happened. earlier today, i arrived home
at 10pm only to find bunnikins asleep (surprise much?). It was bliss as
the hubs and I could catch up on an episode of drama, during which i
dozed off many times on his lap. Happiness. For me at least, coz he's
always lamenting that my head weighs a ton. Anyhows, i often make effort
to spend together time with the hubs and after bunnikins and him are
asleep, then starts my "ME" time. By ME time, i don't mean doing girlish
things like manicures and pedicures. I wish. but it's at this hour
(past midnight) that I've to catch up on my emails, work and chores.
They are endless. To add to the intensity, it's now the tax season! If
you at not aware, u have up till 18 April 2013 to file your taxes lest
you get haunted down by the authorities.
So yeah, i wish
there's some kind of medicine which could give me super powers to be
more productive and alert. To have more energy. And tonight, I realised that i might have found it. I
took a peek at the sleeping bunnikins. She was talking in her sleep.
Yup, she suddenly let out a "Tuk tuk"! I think she must have been
playing with something sharp earlier that evening. I looked at her. Oh
how much my baby girl has grown! Despite still being on the petite side,
it's really a far cry from when she first entered my life. Revelation
that she's my stress reliever and not my stress maker was when I saw her
digging her own belly button! The scene was too cute! Yup. She has a penchant for belly
buttons. Mine and hers. just not the hub's. I wonder why. The hubs
claims it's coz i've flabby tummy whilst his is firm! What a load of
utter rubbish!
Anywayz, the feeling was so surreal to see bunnikins asleep. Pure magic..
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| Thank you for coming into our lives and complete this family!! We love you oh so much, Bunnikins! |
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| Bunnikins, you are my happiness, my world, my apple, my life. You give me strength to carry on. It's coz of you I'm pressing on and conquering greater heights! Love ya! |
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Always a bonus when they sleep earlier than usual! Glad you managed to enjoy time with the husband. I wish too for more hours in the day but recently I have been trying to learn to do less. Not an easy thing for me to learn :)
ReplyDeletehey jas, thanks for popping by. Actually bunnikins sleeps at 10pm on the avg. smth that's works well for my schedule coz I end work late. But coz of that I sometimes end up sleeping with her n not getting Stuff done. often thus results in me waking up at wee hours in shock n I end up doing chores or my work then. wish I can learn to do less too. sigh
DeleteAwwww.. so sweet, love that family pic! My girl sleeps at midnight, can????? Haha. Trying to push it earlier but still doesn't really work, at most 11plus. So my ME time is only in the mornings when she's at half day school and my 3-month-old is sleeping. Back in Sweden, the hubs and I always used to watch dramas or a movie late at night too. =p It's so sweet, isn't it? Even if 9 out of 10 times we get disrupted by a crying baby and ends up she sleeps on my lap in the sofa, but we still managed to watch a nice show together. You make me miss those times! =) But I'm with you on how kids give us strength to conquer anything in the world! Thanks so much for linking up with this happy post! =)
ReplyDeleteThks Summer. My gal used to sleep at midnight too lor! Coz i work late n she gets overstimulated by my in laws. But thru persistant efforts she now can sometimes sleep at 9! Though she may wakeup once but i m vvvv thankful le as the nites used to b peppered w her screams n cries every 2hrs! Things will get better ... that's my mantra.
DeleteKids really make us strive and push the limits. They are our best motivators :)
ReplyDeleteIndeed...i never knew i could do so much n do w so little sleep! Haha
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