WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL ME? I CAN'T TAKE THE SHIT ANYMORE!
The bang is still reverberating in my ears
Saturday, September 18, 2010
I've a list of things to blog about, unfortunately, the mind is willing but flesh is weak. Especially after receiving news the following news: Central Weather Bureau (CWB) warned of torrential rainfall on Sunday and transportation services were suspended as Taiwan braced Saturday night for a direct hit by Typhoon Fanapi. What has Taiwan got to do with me? Everything! The Hubs is there now! The heart has been feeling extremely unsettled since yesterday. Each time he ventures abroad, I'll worry and sometimes get overly paranoid. Naturally! He means the world to me!
Because of this, sleep has been compromised and today, after working from 9-6pm, and after rushing around like a mad woman, running errands, the consequences finally caved in -- A minor accident, at the junction of Bedok Reservoir View, on my way to B's house for mooncake fest. The mind seemed to have switched off momentarily after the lights turned green. Upon releasing the brakes, the next thing I heard was the reverberation of the bang. A slight one but it was sonorous no less. I could hear my own pulses as my heart palpitated. A quick check revealed that there were minor scratches. Hopefully no dents though my suspicion is heightened after continually reviewing the photos. My face blanched with trepidation and eyes faltered with fear. Perhaps seeing this, the driver put on an amicable tone, constantly assuring me that it's a small matter and he'll send in to his mechanic for an assessment. Prolly a quick touchup or spray-paint would suffice. The entire scene is now rewinding constantly in my mind, like a reel rolling out a horror flick. I've been driving for 12 years and nothing as such happened. The record has always been clean (ok, there was just this once when I was still a greenhorn). Being a newbie in this, I was naturally cowering in fear and the erratic thumping of my heart was driving me into deeper panic. However, the rational and practical side of me told me there's nothing to fear if money can settle it all. Told the hubs and after knowing that I was fine, he hung up. Overseas calls are a killer and he must have figured it wasn't worth talking to an inconsolable woman. Distraught, in disarray....words simply cannot spell out how I'm feeling now. I'm relishing a good hug or a comforting voice. Even a shower wasn't enough to neutralise the incident. The only comfort I sought from was from my trusty insurance agent. I didn't know who to look for. Friends galore, but it's sometimes difficult to discern who my real friends and fair weather ones are. It's not like I've committed something treacherous or shameful, but I had to be selective as to whom I'm hearing from. It's probably a girl's thing. Ok this doesn't really make sense since I'm seeking solace by blogging! IRONIC!
Upon reflecting, I was probably too absorbed in the day's events. Tired out by the spectrum of activities and worry. Good winds may be filling the sails of the economy, but finding a job is still not a breeze. Needless to say, the hub's happy-go-lucky nature probably left him to dismiss today's episode as a small matter. We seem to always be on opposite trajectories. It is a clear manifestation that in an event of need, I may not have a single next-of-kin to turn to. A sordid affair of my fears. Though, to be fair, the bro-in-law was a call away to give me sound advice. Rationally, I've got things covered. Several advisers around. But emotionally, it's a different story altogether.
I've chalked up my reaction to exhaustion. Hopefully that would give me some undisturbed sleep tonight. The tummy isn't cooperating and the aura seems to be acting up on me again. Today's drama has further scratched that sensitive spot which most people develop when approaching a certain age horizon. Inexplicably, this encounter made me so morose.
Because of this, sleep has been compromised and today, after working from 9-6pm, and after rushing around like a mad woman, running errands, the consequences finally caved in -- A minor accident, at the junction of Bedok Reservoir View, on my way to B's house for mooncake fest. The mind seemed to have switched off momentarily after the lights turned green. Upon releasing the brakes, the next thing I heard was the reverberation of the bang. A slight one but it was sonorous no less. I could hear my own pulses as my heart palpitated. A quick check revealed that there were minor scratches. Hopefully no dents though my suspicion is heightened after continually reviewing the photos. My face blanched with trepidation and eyes faltered with fear. Perhaps seeing this, the driver put on an amicable tone, constantly assuring me that it's a small matter and he'll send in to his mechanic for an assessment. Prolly a quick touchup or spray-paint would suffice. The entire scene is now rewinding constantly in my mind, like a reel rolling out a horror flick. I've been driving for 12 years and nothing as such happened. The record has always been clean (ok, there was just this once when I was still a greenhorn). Being a newbie in this, I was naturally cowering in fear and the erratic thumping of my heart was driving me into deeper panic. However, the rational and practical side of me told me there's nothing to fear if money can settle it all. Told the hubs and after knowing that I was fine, he hung up. Overseas calls are a killer and he must have figured it wasn't worth talking to an inconsolable woman. Distraught, in disarray....words simply cannot spell out how I'm feeling now. I'm relishing a good hug or a comforting voice. Even a shower wasn't enough to neutralise the incident. The only comfort I sought from was from my trusty insurance agent. I didn't know who to look for. Friends galore, but it's sometimes difficult to discern who my real friends and fair weather ones are. It's not like I've committed something treacherous or shameful, but I had to be selective as to whom I'm hearing from. It's probably a girl's thing. Ok this doesn't really make sense since I'm seeking solace by blogging! IRONIC!
Upon reflecting, I was probably too absorbed in the day's events. Tired out by the spectrum of activities and worry. Good winds may be filling the sails of the economy, but finding a job is still not a breeze. Needless to say, the hub's happy-go-lucky nature probably left him to dismiss today's episode as a small matter. We seem to always be on opposite trajectories. It is a clear manifestation that in an event of need, I may not have a single next-of-kin to turn to. A sordid affair of my fears. Though, to be fair, the bro-in-law was a call away to give me sound advice. Rationally, I've got things covered. Several advisers around. But emotionally, it's a different story altogether.
I've chalked up my reaction to exhaustion. Hopefully that would give me some undisturbed sleep tonight. The tummy isn't cooperating and the aura seems to be acting up on me again. Today's drama has further scratched that sensitive spot which most people develop when approaching a certain age horizon. Inexplicably, this encounter made me so morose.
I can only pray hard for the calming of the mind, feelings of peace and comfort, decreased inner conflict, increased ability to be an observer of myself and my life
Delicacy of Nobility
Saturday, September 4, 2010
A new day beckoned, the majestic ball of fire made its dramatic entrance, signaling the start of a brand new day. Really appreciated the fact that I had the Saturday off. It was nice to break the monotony. My mind often grapples with shock at how time flies. I had to rediscover the joy of work-life balance and put things in perspective. Slept like a baby and awoke from my deep slumber to the tune of the gentle morning breeze crooning outside my window.
Made reservations to taste the delicacies of nobility @ St Regis -- Yan Ting Restaurant:
Name of sculpture: The Nude Couple. hmm...hope I don't look like that when I get older! *GULP*
The temptation of the mouth-water gastronomic fanfare was too much for me to abstain from. Clearly, my diet plans had to be thrown out of the window (if there were any to begin with). Everything seemed so tantalizing and I was eager to consume the temptation there and then. Portions were nice for two. Many a times I wanted to go for dim sum with the hubs but am afraid of over-ordering. Here, the problem is solved with most items coming in pairs. Prices are however on the high side. Eg. Mango Pomelo Dessert ($8)-- Yes, clearly I was oblivious to the price and pampering myself blindly. Char siew sou ($3.6 for 2). Sweet and savoury bits of char siew within the golden coat of buttery flaky pastry. Perfect.
My tastebuds exploded in utter delight when I sank my teeth in one of my favourite dim sum items -- Carrot cake. I do hope my aunt would order this for 2011 Chinese New year.
Stir-fried rice roll ($6) with XO sauce. An interesting dish which tasted quite like its cheaper cousin-- Char Kway Teow. Its full-bodied taste lingered in my mouth.
There's also the a la carte Dim Sum buffet going at $98 ++ but I wasn't ready to expand the waistline.
Inviting tradition. Signature mooncakes handcrafted by Yan Ting's Masterchefs. I was drawn by the fact that it was Sugar-free. Perfect for the MIL who doesn't have a sweet tooth! At $60 for a box of 4 Sugar-free White Lotus Paste, it's bigger tab than other hotels but well-suited to be bestowed to your most-cherished elders. I was hoping that I could sample some of the other snow-skinned versions like Almond snow skin mooncake with Japanese sweet potato paste which is coloured by the natural purple hues of the creamy Okinawan sweet potato, or the Seven perfumes snow skin with yolk and white lotus paste or the exotic Seven perfumes Snow skin with Martel Cordon Bleu Cognac Truffle and White Lotus Paste -- That sounds out of this world. However, there was no sampling and I could not purchase only one to try. :(
After the YOG, this was finally the first decent meal I had with sweetie. I think it has been a month now since we've sat down together for a meal. Wanted to patronize Blooies @ Siglap but parking was a nightmare thus we ventured further and made a spontaneous decision to dine at BIG FISH. It has been in business for quite some time now and I thought we gave it a try. The lobster bisque was a disappointing number. Sweetie commented that I made better crab bisque. The pan-seared cod which I ordered also did not make the mark.
Met up with H on Friday night. My tummy and head were raging war on me once again thus I decided to head for a healthy option -- NAIVE @ Katong. I've probably blogged about it previously but once is not enough for this place. Natural and simple. Fantastic and healthy-asian menu from purely plant-based ingredients with no meat, no eggs, no garlic, no msg. Sounds impossible? Well they certainly managed to pass the stringent test and serve up a mean meatless meal! The Sweet and Sour Tofu was so good it makes one wonder if one is having the meat version! The Monkeyhead mushrooms with broccoli was also one of my favourites! Its texture was like chicken! Amazing. I'm totally bowled over by this revolutionary find! Love the decor and design too. Apparently it's designed by a budding artist who is part of a youth group called NOISE. The shop closes rather early though (10pm). I guess it's in line with being healthy.
The obscurity of the night is slowly creeping in.The crescent moon hung ceremoniously accompanied by a couple of stars twinkling like an entourage. For now, I'm just savouring what's left of the wonderful Saturday and hopefully Sunday will bring more delight!
Made reservations to taste the delicacies of nobility @ St Regis -- Yan Ting Restaurant:
Name of sculpture: The Nude Couple. hmm...hope I don't look like that when I get older! *GULP*
The temptation of the mouth-water gastronomic fanfare was too much for me to abstain from. Clearly, my diet plans had to be thrown out of the window (if there were any to begin with). Everything seemed so tantalizing and I was eager to consume the temptation there and then. Portions were nice for two. Many a times I wanted to go for dim sum with the hubs but am afraid of over-ordering. Here, the problem is solved with most items coming in pairs. Prices are however on the high side. Eg. Mango Pomelo Dessert ($8)-- Yes, clearly I was oblivious to the price and pampering myself blindly. Char siew sou ($3.6 for 2). Sweet and savoury bits of char siew within the golden coat of buttery flaky pastry. Perfect.
My tastebuds exploded in utter delight when I sank my teeth in one of my favourite dim sum items -- Carrot cake. I do hope my aunt would order this for 2011 Chinese New year.
Stir-fried rice roll ($6) with XO sauce. An interesting dish which tasted quite like its cheaper cousin-- Char Kway Teow. Its full-bodied taste lingered in my mouth.
There's also the a la carte Dim Sum buffet going at $98 ++ but I wasn't ready to expand the waistline.
Inviting tradition. Signature mooncakes handcrafted by Yan Ting's Masterchefs. I was drawn by the fact that it was Sugar-free. Perfect for the MIL who doesn't have a sweet tooth! At $60 for a box of 4 Sugar-free White Lotus Paste, it's bigger tab than other hotels but well-suited to be bestowed to your most-cherished elders. I was hoping that I could sample some of the other snow-skinned versions like Almond snow skin mooncake with Japanese sweet potato paste which is coloured by the natural purple hues of the creamy Okinawan sweet potato, or the Seven perfumes snow skin with yolk and white lotus paste or the exotic Seven perfumes Snow skin with Martel Cordon Bleu Cognac Truffle and White Lotus Paste -- That sounds out of this world. However, there was no sampling and I could not purchase only one to try. :(
After the YOG, this was finally the first decent meal I had with sweetie. I think it has been a month now since we've sat down together for a meal. Wanted to patronize Blooies @ Siglap but parking was a nightmare thus we ventured further and made a spontaneous decision to dine at BIG FISH. It has been in business for quite some time now and I thought we gave it a try. The lobster bisque was a disappointing number. Sweetie commented that I made better crab bisque. The pan-seared cod which I ordered also did not make the mark.
Met up with H on Friday night. My tummy and head were raging war on me once again thus I decided to head for a healthy option -- NAIVE @ Katong. I've probably blogged about it previously but once is not enough for this place. Natural and simple. Fantastic and healthy-asian menu from purely plant-based ingredients with no meat, no eggs, no garlic, no msg. Sounds impossible? Well they certainly managed to pass the stringent test and serve up a mean meatless meal! The Sweet and Sour Tofu was so good it makes one wonder if one is having the meat version! The Monkeyhead mushrooms with broccoli was also one of my favourites! Its texture was like chicken! Amazing. I'm totally bowled over by this revolutionary find! Love the decor and design too. Apparently it's designed by a budding artist who is part of a youth group called NOISE. The shop closes rather early though (10pm). I guess it's in line with being healthy.
The obscurity of the night is slowly creeping in.The crescent moon hung ceremoniously accompanied by a couple of stars twinkling like an entourage. For now, I'm just savouring what's left of the wonderful Saturday and hopefully Sunday will bring more delight!